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Just when I thought

I couldn’t go lower

He dragged me down

To the Underworld

By my hair.

Whispering sweet nothings

Devotions of praise

Promises to explore

Alarming and enticing

Nothing like the boy I once knew.

The distance changed him

Time changed me

The unfulfilled hope of his return

Shadowed my face and heart

Night after night.

At first light his silhouette

Approaching in a dark coat

Set against the dewy morning

Sun at this back

Hiding his true expression.

Should I have rejoiced?

Welcomed his return

Without so much as a letter

Or a fuck you

To explain his absence?

I think not.

I celebrated by punishing him

Laughing and showing off

Glowing as best as I could

Using beauty and detachment

To mask my true desire.

It wasn’t until he cornered me

Forced me to look in his eyes

Explain my cold dismissiveness

That my defenses fell

Forever in shambles.

Thoughts of revenge disappeared

Replaced only by desperation

Clinging to him like life itself

My survival intricately linked

To his own, forevermore.

When he asked to take me lower

I never anticipated this

Following blindly

Warned to never turn around

Listening intently and obeying.

Descend we did

Farther into the depths

Away from any hope

Of sun rays

Or sunflowers.

Only pomegranates

Roses red like darkest blood

Thorns protruding from walls

And from the top of his head

Delicious and terrifying all in one.

He whispered

“Darling, are you afraid?”

“Of you, my sweet?

Or of the night

You cast upon my shoulders

Like a black velvet shroud?”

He remained silent.

I pressed my lips

To the crook in his neck

Bit gently with a smile

And whispered:

“Take me lower.”