SUNSHINE AURA – self-esteem. self-love. self-actualization. 

I awoke from a dream with

A deep ache in my chest

Longing for something

That once used to be.

I don’t recall where or why

But I had traveled

Back in time

To a tropical hotel, unfamiliar.

There was a sense of urgency

In this dream

That I must fix something

In the past, to help the present.

I ran all over the island

Jumping, fighting, fleeing, trying

And found myself in a restaurant

Filled with people.

I was running from a bad guy

Looking for a place to hide

When my gaze hit the bar

And a brick hit my heart.

It was you.

Vibrant, talkative, that big smile

A beer in one hand

Untroubled, carefree face

The one I remember you had.

The sense of urgency vanished

I walked slowly to you

Like a silent fairy floating

Across the floor on tip-toes.

You turned around

When you felt my approach

And I felt crushed and joyous

All at once.

It was the you I used to know

The one I wished had stayed

The person I ache for

Sometimes when I wish.

I said hello and you said it back

It was a dream, of course,

So I don’t remember what we said

But you didn’t know me.

I was visiting you from the future

At a time when I would have been

A young girl

The sweet time where happy memories live.

We talked and talked

I wanted to stay forever

To know who you once were

As I am now.

But as all time travel stories are

I needed to go

My mission complete

The timeline to be restored.

So I said goodbye

And I wept the entire run

Back to safety

Back to the future.

I awoke, wondering,

Is it possible to visit

A past version of someone

Who you really love

And wish was here now?