SUNSHINE AURA – self-esteem. self-love. self-actualization. 

Like a flame about to die

On its very last flicker

The hot wax – liquid, cratering

The scent growing strongest

Just before it’ll never burn again

That moment.

That is when I wake up.

Before all is lost and the end is inevitable

That is when I come back.

I could be cliché and say I rise like a phoenix

Or that I shine brightest like the sun before it sets,

But it is much more than that.

I do nothing in halves and only in full

Blazing and crackling like a hot star

Nearing the moment it’ll explode into a nebula.

I spin and throw off heat and silver light

Radiant and uncontrolled – until it’s too much.

Then I retreat into myself

Alone and awake and praying for evolution.

Just when it feels like the fire is dying

I dig down deep and pull the tiniest spark

Safely depositing it at the surface.

And just like that: I’m back.