SUNSHINE AURA – self-esteem. self-love. self-actualization. 

I wanted to have fun
But I didn’t want to be a toy.

I guess I believed you
When you painted the future.

Looking back I can see
You were just using me.

You wanted to get your feet wet
Without the risk of drowning.

And I was shiny and sunny
You soaked me right up.

What hurts the most
Is I thought it was real.

You tricked me
But I said yes.

Showing off to your friends
A challenge to conquer.

I was just too naive and new
But you had years on me.

And I couldn’t tell anyone
Because they judged the situation.

So now I’m left looking
For some way to let go.

After it was done
You gave me no closure.

You just took it all away
Made me look crazy.

I thought I was safe to feel
To let myself be vulnerable.

After the ultimate vulnerability
You went silent.

There was no conversation
No ending, no fade-out, no credits.

Just me looking foolish and young
Feeling dumb and betrayed.

You never gave me closure
So I’m giving it to myself.