SUNSHINE AURA – self-esteem. self-love. self-actualization. 

I think I’ve finally broken free of your captivity

This unhealthy hold you’ve had on me

So akin to weighted, metal chains across my chest

Ignoring my instincts telling me what they know best.

You’re no good for me and maybe no good for anyone

How could it take me so long to admit this wasn’t fun?

This warped sense of connection, so untrue and unreal

Your expert way of tricking me out of how I truly feel.

Because when it feels good you hold on too tight

Even when deep down you know it isn’t right

And every time you sensed me pulling away

You came up with another ploy to make me stay.

Somehow I finally opened my eyes to see true

And when I did, I saw the ugliest version of you

Such a scary trickster, capable of singing lies

Preventing me from ever saying goodbyes.

It was up to me to see the truth and let it go

To bury it.

And so I did.

I buried it deep.

Gave the ground.

My heart to keep.

Until it’s time.

For a resurrection.